i finally realized that the power which i adore so much.
我终于意识到了我所憧憬的力量。
so i'll try my best to do it.
所以我将尽我最大的努力去做。
although i'm still weak and not good, i just knew the reason of my being here.
尽管我仍然脆弱并且差劲，但是我终于明白了我出生的理由。
i must become hardier and hardier, only for my dream.
为了我的梦想我必须变得更加坚强。
these days i sank into my memory all the way, but nothing changed.
这些天我一直沉迷于我的记忆中，但是什么都没有改变。
so i knew it's wrong.
所以我终于明白这么做是错的。
it'll never make me grow up or more brave.
这么做永远不能使我长大或者更勇敢。
i should face to myself and do something by myself.
我应该面对我自己并且自己亲自做一些事情。
i knew there is something just i can do.
我知道有一些事情是仅仅只有我能做的。
in other words, there's always some important things nobody can do except me in this world.
换而言之，这个世界上总有一些重要的事情除了我没有人能做到。
after all，i'll get over all the difficulties by myself.
最终我将自己克服所有的苦难。
i see.
我知道的。
i still remembered that on that sunny day heyang smiled and taught me, "don't make everything a lie."我仍然记得在那个晴朗的日子赫洋笑着对我说：“不要让一切化为泡影。”
her sweet smile was still keep in my mind.
她那时的甜美的笑脸一直留在我的脑海中。
i knew i made a glaring mistake.
我知道我犯了个很大的错误。
but i will revive from the past days just like the phoenix nirvanas.
但是我将从过去中复活就像凤凰涅槃一样。
i believe i will.
我相信我将会。
just because i knew there is hope for myself yet, i don't want to abandon now.
仅仅因为我知道我仍然还有希望，我不想现在就放弃。
i won't give up my dream or my heart until i die.
我直到死才会放弃我的梦想和我的心灵。
it's my promise.
这是我的誓言。
maybe i will still childish, but i believed that i can grow up and make my dream come true.
也许我将仍然充满孩子气，但是我想我会长大并且令我的梦想成真。
just for myself，i won't be afraid of changing or true.
我将不会害怕改变或者显示，就为了我自己。
if one day i lose myself and my dream, i'll be dejected and decadent again.
也许有一天我会失去我自己和我的梦想，我将在一次变得消沉颓废。
so can you remind me of my promise?
所以你能提醒我记起曾许下的诺言吗？
it's important for me. i need more courage.
它对我很重要。我需要更多的勇气。
though i still feel myself inferior and timid, i also realized that i must stand up and pursue the goal of perfection in my world.
尽管我仍然自卑怯懦，我也意识到我必须站起来并且我追求我的目标——属于我的世界的完美境界。
i want to initiate a world which just belongs to me in the boundaries of writers.
我想在作家界开创一个只属于我的世界。
i'll find myself and a style only is mine.
我将找到我自己和只属于我的风格。
maybe i can't achieve my dream for it is so big, but i will take the trouble to do this.
也许我不能实现我的梦想，但是我将尽我最大的努力去做。
i don't want to regret that i thought i do nothing for my dream when i'm old.
我不想在我老的时候因为想到自己为了梦想什么都没做而遗憾。
i'll revive from the past days than to be much better than before. i know.
我将从过去中复活然后做得比过去好。我知道。
——纯原创